Late night bloggin'

Heee! I missed bloggin' been busy with my journal and planner! I'm updating it much as I can than my blog and it's baaaaaaaaad. Oh so bad! Anyways, it's been a hella fun day at my English class because my professor gave credits on my works! Yieeee! And I think I fcukin' deserved it! I fcukin deserved 1.5 right? Hahahahahahaha!! Oh I'm soooooo happy that I could die. Loljk. I wanna be more better on my English.. I'm working on it! I wanna be on the top! Aja!

Mom

Tears rolling down my eyes when I wake up. Napanaginipan ko kasi si Mommy. I though it was real but it was not and it will never be. Miss na miss ko na siya sobra! Kung pwede lang ibalik ang nakaraan. Haaay! Ayoko na munang mag-isip anything about love life I'll focus on my families and friends for a better me. Kaya ko naman eh coz I'm on of a hella strong. Masyado na akong maraming pinagdaanan at hindi ko na kailangan i-focus yung sarili ko sa kanya kasi wala naman ng halaga yun. Madami pa akong makikita at matutunan dun na lang muna ako mag-fofocus ngayon. XO

1/14/2013

Monday is it! I will start this day the right way. I will move on some more according to Sir RB! I don't want anymore heartaches and miseries. Tama na! Time-out na! I wanna do good to make my life productive, for my future and for my family. Kalimutan na ang dapat kalimutan at magsimula ng panibago para maging masaya ang buhay. More good vibes please! I know God will help me. Praise Him! Thank you so much for everything. XO

Something Borrowed

The world is not a wish-granting factory. 
- The Fault in Our Stars

Everybody hurts

Hindi ko inakalang magbbreak kami. Hindi ito yung ineexpect ko. Akala ko maganda yung 2013 sa akin pero hindi pala. He chose to breakup with me kasi napapagod na siya. Wala ng mas sasakit pa ngayon sa nararamdaman ko. Gusto ko na lang magkulong dito sa kwarto at wag ng lumabas. I'm trying to move forward pero pag naiisip ko nahihirapan ako. Bakit ganun? I feel so small. I feel so stupid. I'm such a mess. Kung may gamot lang para makalimot bibilhin ko yun. Gusto ko ng kalimutan kung ano man yung mga nangyari dahil hindi pa rin talaga ako magkakamove-on ng maayos. I'm a zombieeee now! Ilang araw na akong walang magandang tulog. Ilang araw na din akong walang kain na maayos. I just want to drink and drink and drink to forget but I can't because I don't want too. Ayokong isipin nila na porket I had a breakup magreresort na ako sa mga ganung mga bagay. I just want here in my room sitting in front of my laptop watching movies, series, listening songs, or read. Ayokong lumabas! Kung pwede lang wag ng lumabas ng kwarto gagawin ko pero hindi pwede dahil I have my fcuking school.