Thursday, May 30, 2013
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Overthinking kills your happiness. Insecurities kills your self-esteem. Lies kills your trust.
Kung kelan naman ikaw nagsisimulang magtiwala dun pa din hindi natatapos ang mga hinala na tama nga naman. Kaya papaano ka magtitiwala. Nakakapagod. Hindi ako sanay sa ganitong sitwasyon. Ayoko ng masyadong madaming iniisip lalo't pa't wala namang mga kakwenta-kwenta ang bagay-bagay na iyon. Pero hindi ko pa din maiwasan kasi masakit eh. Hindi pa pwedeng maging okay na lang ang lahat ng bagay? Hindi pa pwedeng maging masaya at kuntento sa kung anong meron tayo ngayon? I just want to give up and start anew again. I don't deserve to be treated like that and I also think that he doesn't deserve me. Why stoop down his level? Their level? I'm smarter than them. Am I? Why I can't just have a perfect relationship? Sana dumating na yung time na ibigay na lang Niya sa akin kung sino talaga yung karapat-dapat. Sana din hindi ako nagmadali. It takes two to tango to be here. I'm so stupid to indulge myself on this kind of situation. I know I can stop before its too late. But I don't know how? I'm trying my very best to be perfect in this relationship but my partner doesn't seems to notice it. I know I'm blunt. Selfishness. Weird. But that doesn't mean I don't care. I have fucking feelings too. How many times do I have to tell him that I do love him? That I do care? Nakakabaliw! Konting-konti na lang talaga. Masasagad na ako. Makakagawa na naman siguro ako ng bagay na alam kong ikakaregret ko kung ganyan lang din naman ang sitwasyon namin.
Kung kelan naman ikaw nagsisimulang magtiwala dun pa din hindi natatapos ang mga hinala na tama nga naman. Kaya papaano ka magtitiwala. Nakakapagod. Hindi ako sanay sa ganitong sitwasyon. Ayoko ng masyadong madaming iniisip lalo't pa't wala namang mga kakwenta-kwenta ang bagay-bagay na iyon. Pero hindi ko pa din maiwasan kasi masakit eh. Hindi pa pwedeng maging okay na lang ang lahat ng bagay? Hindi pa pwedeng maging masaya at kuntento sa kung anong meron tayo ngayon? I just want to give up and start anew again. I don't deserve to be treated like that and I also think that he doesn't deserve me. Why stoop down his level? Their level? I'm smarter than them. Am I? Why I can't just have a perfect relationship? Sana dumating na yung time na ibigay na lang Niya sa akin kung sino talaga yung karapat-dapat. Sana din hindi ako nagmadali. It takes two to tango to be here. I'm so stupid to indulge myself on this kind of situation. I know I can stop before its too late. But I don't know how? I'm trying my very best to be perfect in this relationship but my partner doesn't seems to notice it. I know I'm blunt. Selfishness. Weird. But that doesn't mean I don't care. I have fucking feelings too. How many times do I have to tell him that I do love him? That I do care? Nakakabaliw! Konting-konti na lang talaga. Masasagad na ako. Makakagawa na naman siguro ako ng bagay na alam kong ikakaregret ko kung ganyan lang din naman ang sitwasyon namin.
5/21/2013
I've been productive since yesterday! Hahahaha! Last day of driving class earlier. So sad! More practice pa daw. Ampfness! Hahahaha! Sana nandito na lang boyfriend ko para maturuan pa ako sa driving ko. Lol. Wishing him here and wishing him not here also. I miss him so bad. Mahal na mahal ko yun kahit palagi ko siyang inaaway. Hahaha! Ang sarap pala kasi mangaway ng boyfriend, I don't usually do that before. Abnoy kasi ako dati eh! Robot kung baga. Haha! Well, I don't give a fcuk anymore. And now I will gladly fcuking admit that I am the jealous type girlfriend. Sobra! As in. OA na nga eh! Hahaha. Kaloka! Sobrang love ko lang talaga kasi yun kaya ako ganun. Ewan ko ba! Natatawa na nga lang ako sa sarili ko eh. Kaya siguro OA na ko minsan kasi alam ko na gwapo nga yung boyfriend ko and I know many girls like him, madaming naghahabol, nagpapansin. Ewan! Takot lang kasi ako and insecure. But he told me that he will never do that thing that will make my heart break. I just miss Chit so much! Sana magka-work na siya dun, alam ko nahihirapan siyang maghanap ng work niya eh. Sana talaga maging okay na lahat. Hay! </3
Thursday, May 16, 2013
5/16/2013
Woke up because head's aching, really hate that shizzz. Hay! Buti na lang I have meds. Can't fcukin' live without them. Feeling ko tuloy it's one of my important essentials na tipong konting sakit lang ng ulo inom kaagad ng gamot. That's oh so bad! Very very bad. </3
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
5/14/2013
When you're around me, I'm turning RADIOACTIVE. #LSS
Diggin' some Marina and the Diamonds. Fcuk her songs! Lurve it so mucho! Hahaha.
Here now at Tondo actually kahapon pa pala! Coz I just fcukin' miss my family kaya ako nandito kahit na sinermunan ako ng Tita ko dahil sa comment ni Chit na ''Asawa'' hahaha! Grabe. Yun lang binigyan pa talaga ng meaning. So old skool talaga ng mga Tita ko! Hahahaha! We're on fcukin 2013 na. Wala na tayo sa panahon ni kopong-kopong. Nakakaloka lang. Ayun! Miss ko na din kaagad sa Manda. Ano ba yan! Kung pwede lang paghatiin yung katawan ko eh, kalahati dito, kalahati din doon. </3
Diggin' some Marina and the Diamonds. Fcuk her songs! Lurve it so mucho! Hahaha.
Here now at Tondo actually kahapon pa pala! Coz I just fcukin' miss my family kaya ako nandito kahit na sinermunan ako ng Tita ko dahil sa comment ni Chit na ''Asawa'' hahaha! Grabe. Yun lang binigyan pa talaga ng meaning. So old skool talaga ng mga Tita ko! Hahahaha! We're on fcukin 2013 na. Wala na tayo sa panahon ni kopong-kopong. Nakakaloka lang. Ayun! Miss ko na din kaagad sa Manda. Ano ba yan! Kung pwede lang paghatiin yung katawan ko eh, kalahati dito, kalahati din doon. </3
Monday, May 13, 2013
5/13/2013
This was not my idea, don't you keep me waitin'. LSS
Heyo! So much happenings for 1 month! Ganun na ba ako ka-busy? Nakakaloka. Nakalimutan ko ng mag-blog. To think na halos araw-araw akong nagbblog dati. Well! Sorry na-inlove eh. Kaya ayun naging busy! I'd never been so happy and complete after all this time. Thank you to my significant other RON DALISAY! I love you Chit! Thank you for making me happy, for being an understanding boyfriend despite of my weirdness in life. Sorry if I'm not like the other girls you've been with. I know medyo nahihirapan ka sa akin pero sana wag kang sumuko. SANA! I know LDR is so fcuking hirap. Ang hirap lang talaga! Shet! Bakit ba lagi na lang ako LDR. Hindi ba pwede yung SDR naman? Loljk. Well, kakayanin ko toh! Kakayanin natin toh! Sana walang sumuko sa ating dalawa. We'll try to work things out. I know you're fcuking goddamn serious on our relationship, I do too! Hindi nga lang halata. Haha! I love you Chit! :*
Heyo! So much happenings for 1 month! Ganun na ba ako ka-busy? Nakakaloka. Nakalimutan ko ng mag-blog. To think na halos araw-araw akong nagbblog dati. Well! Sorry na-inlove eh. Kaya ayun naging busy! I'd never been so happy and complete after all this time. Thank you to my significant other RON DALISAY! I love you Chit! Thank you for making me happy, for being an understanding boyfriend despite of my weirdness in life. Sorry if I'm not like the other girls you've been with. I know medyo nahihirapan ka sa akin pero sana wag kang sumuko. SANA! I know LDR is so fcuking hirap. Ang hirap lang talaga! Shet! Bakit ba lagi na lang ako LDR. Hindi ba pwede yung SDR naman? Loljk. Well, kakayanin ko toh! Kakayanin natin toh! Sana walang sumuko sa ating dalawa. We'll try to work things out. I know you're fcuking goddamn serious on our relationship, I do too! Hindi nga lang halata. Haha! I love you Chit! :*
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