Overthinking kills your happiness. Insecurities kills your self-esteem. Lies kills your trust.

Kung kelan naman ikaw nagsisimulang magtiwala dun pa din hindi natatapos ang mga hinala na tama nga naman. Kaya papaano ka magtitiwala. Nakakapagod. Hindi ako sanay sa ganitong sitwasyon. Ayoko ng masyadong madaming iniisip lalo't pa't wala namang mga kakwenta-kwenta ang bagay-bagay na iyon. Pero hindi ko pa din maiwasan kasi masakit eh. Hindi pa pwedeng maging okay na lang ang lahat ng bagay? Hindi pa pwedeng maging masaya at kuntento sa kung anong meron tayo ngayon? I just want to give up and start anew again. I don't deserve to be treated like that and I also think that he doesn't deserve me. Why stoop down his level? Their level? I'm smarter than them. Am I? Why I can't just have a perfect relationship? Sana dumating na yung time na ibigay na lang Niya sa akin kung sino talaga yung karapat-dapat. Sana din hindi ako nagmadali. It takes two to tango to be here. I'm so stupid to indulge myself on this kind of situation. I know I can stop before its too late. But I don't know how? I'm trying my very best to be perfect in this relationship but my partner doesn't seems to notice it. I know I'm blunt. Selfishness. Weird. But that doesn't mean I don't care. I have fucking feelings too. How many times do I have to tell him that I do love him? That I do care? Nakakabaliw! Konting-konti na lang talaga. Masasagad na ako. Makakagawa na naman siguro ako ng bagay na alam kong ikakaregret ko kung ganyan lang din naman ang sitwasyon namin.