Unproductive Day! AGAIN

Didn't go to school na naman! To think it's already our prelims. Nakakatamad lang talaga! School's been too boring for me NOW! I feel so old na for school. Huhuhuhuuuu! Bakit dati I'm so excited to go to school tas ngayon wala na naman akong gana. Siguro kasi iniisip ko na darating na si Eugene. Nawawala yung focus ko! Pakshet. What should I fucking do??? Tanggalin ko muna siya sa isip ko tapos mag-focus ako sa school and enough of friends na muna siguro. Right? Haaaaaaay! Help me Bro! I need you now! Kailangan kong MAG-FOCUS at kailangan kong tanggaling ang KATAMARAN SA KATAWAN KO BECAUSE I WANT TO HAVE MY FUTURE! Kailangan ko ng motivation/inspiration, and that will be my FAMILY. Right? Enough of love life muna. Dadating naman na din siya tsaka na lang kapag nandito na siya. Di ba? I also want him to be proud of me kaya I should really lessen thinking to much, thinking of unnecessary things. Haaaaaaaaay! So help me God! I love you. Alam kong hindi mo ako papabayaan.